See you when the flowers bloom, Ji-yong oppa~

We all knew it was coming, they even said so themselves that they’ll enlist in early 2018. But it was still especially hard for me. And I’m sure lots of VIPs too. When it was announced on freaking Valentine’s Day that Ji-yong would be enlisting on the 27th of the month. I remember distracting myself the whole day because I didn’t want to deal with the news. But at the end of the day, when I had nothing but the silence of the night as I tried to sleep, tears ended up falling.

It’s not like I’m his biggest stan. I even quit kpop for a couple of years (late 2012 to early 2017) but still did care about Big Bang and him, but just not as much as I used to. I ended up coming back to kpop last 2017 because he was coming to the Philippines and I wouldn’t miss that chance to see him perform live. And now I’m in a kpop blackhole again and once again, he was my gateway.

Big Bang was my introduction to kpop and Ji-yong was my first kpop favorite, my first kpop oppa. I remember first seeing photos of TOP on a random blog and thinking that he’s handsome back in 2008, in my high school dorm. I then got curious what’s this Big Bang, this kpop, so I then proceeded to watch the music video of “Haru Haru” and the rest was history. GD caught my eye immediately and he had been my favorite since 2008.

I thought because I left the kpop scene for some years, I wouldn’t be as gaga when I see GD perform live but I ended up crying a couple of times, like how when I first saw Big Bang live. I remember defending him all the time back in college, even his dubious fashion statements and whatnot. His songs marked certain phases of my life, as with his hair color and hairstyle. I didn’t realize back then how ingrained GD was in me growing up.

I’ve been used to male Korean actors being “taken” by the army but Ji-yong is really the first kpop oppa I really care about. Taecyeon has enlisted, among many others, but all I thought was that’s par for the course. But with Ji-yong, even if it was inevitable, I still cry and feel sad that he’s leaving for two years. Sometimes I feel that I’m overacting but it is what it is, this is how I feel.

Mostly, I’m honestly worried what’s gonna happen to him in the military. Our soft boy, our shy boy. Despite all his swagger and confidence and charisma onstage, Ji-yong is shy and easily embarrassed and I kept on thinking if he’s gonna be okay in the army. And then I think that at least he might find some peace of mind in there as he’ll be away from the media and the public eye, although if you’ve seen the photos from his enlistment, EVERYONE is looking at him. The other males enlisting, the families, EVERYONE. After all, he’s a superstar.

I’ve been stalking photos and videos of his enlistment a while ago but I was still kinda in denial. I know it’s just temporary but WHY AM I FEELING LIKE THIS I DON’T KNOW

Then I saw this tweet:

And I knew I had to shift how I think to this. Waiting is nothing, because we know he’s coming back, Big Bang is coming back. And their music is always there, I can just listen to them again and again, as I’ve been doing ever since coming back to kpop. I mean, what’s two years without new content, right? RIGHT? *convincing myself*

Anyway, Ji-yong oppa. I hope you get to rest from all the watchful eyes of the media while you’re in the military. Eat your meals and serve well! See you when the flowers bloom, indeed. AND I AM CRYING AGAIN I CRY EVERY TIME I READ OR SAY SEE YOU WHEN THE FLOWERS BLOOM

I fear that I’m not coherent but these are just my thoughts right now. Humor me as I try to come to terms with this.

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Recent Saves (1)

Pretty much what it says in the title. Photos I’ve saved recently~

Or basically an excuse to post this goofy Sung Hoon gif. I seriously feel like he’s actively destroying and shedding his cool guy image. And I’m all for it! His stint in I Live Alone was too real. His real self seems to be well-suited for variety shows. SUNG HOON IN MORE VARIETY SHOWS PLEASE

More random photos under the cut! (Should probably inform you that they’re mostly Korean guys, except for a certain Dane DeHaan.) Continue reading →

Weekly Round-up (5): August 27 – September 2, 2017

I’ll never forget this image. How can Korean variety shows think of such ingenious games and punishments? HAHAHA

I’m doing weekly round-ups now, which will include any media I consumed for the past week, from Sunday to Saturday. I’d be glad if you end up getting some recommendations but I’m only doing this as a form of a media journal (to make it easy to write reviews later on). And fine, an actual journal too. Here goes! Continue reading →

Weekly Round-up (3): August 13 – 19, 2017

kyung soo bb y so cute

I’m doing weekly round-ups now, which will include any media I consumed for the past week, from Sunday to Saturday. I’d be glad if you end up getting some recommendations but I’m only doing this as a form of a media journal (to make it easy to write reviews later on). And fine, an actual journal too. Here goes! Continue reading →

G-Dragon releases Crayon MV

Love the colors and the energy! Enjoy!

That XX – G-Dragon MV

Oh my, GD, yar so fine. You look so good. ❤ Enjoy!

One of a Kind – G-Dragon MV

Enjoy!

G-Dragon’s Teaser for Big Bang’s Monster MV

Enjoy!

Full Audio: Dancing On My Own – Pixie Lott feat. GD&TOP

So Pixie Lott is releasing a Japanese version of her album and with that, she collaborated with Big Bang’s G-Dragon and TOP. So, this is just amazing. I saw this news the other day but waited for the actual song to be released before blogging about it. But before reading that, I never thought that Pixie Lott would ever be connected to Big Bang. I mean, wow. Anyway, enjoy! The whole track is in English so yey! I wish I had GD and TOP’s swag. I really do. I think I’d be infinitely cooler hahaha!

G-Dragon for High Cut Korea Vol. 70

Oh hell yeah! G-Dragon! More under the cut!

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