If happy is her, I’m happy for you

DEMI, STOP MAKING ME CRY.

I feel like I didn’t highlight this song fully in this post because I ended up just spazzing about Adele. But good lord, THIS SONG. I get teary -eyed every time I listen to it because:

  1. THE LYRICS CAN YOU JUST LISTEN TO THE LYRICS
  2. DEMI SLAYING THE SONG
  3. DEMI’S VOICE
  4. DEMI’S TALENT
  5. ALL THE EMOTIONS THAT COME THROUGH WHEN DEMI SINGS IT
  6. OHMYGOD SERIOUSLY THE LYRICS

I’ll just put the lyrics in here so you can sing along. It has a lot of Adele’s Someone Like You feels and just DEMIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Stone cold, stone cold
You see me standing, but I’m dying on the floor
Stone cold, stone cold
Maybe if I don’t cry, I won’t feel anymore

Stone cold, baby
God knows I tried to feel
Happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can’t understand, I’ll take the pain
Give me the truth, me and my heart
We’ll make it through
If happy is her, I’m happy for you

Hmmmm

Stone cold, stone cold
You’re dancing with her, while I’m staring at my phone
Stone cold, stone cold
I was your amber, but now she’s your shade of gold

Stone cold, baby
God knows I tried to feel
Happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can’t understand, I’ll take the pain
Give me the truth, me and my heart
We’ll make it through
If happy is her, I’m happy for you

Don’t wanna be stone cold, stone
I wish I could mean this but here’s my goodbye
Oh, I’m happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can’t understand
If happy is her, If happy is her
I’m happy for you

STONE COLDDDDDDDDD

IF HAPPY IS HER, I’M HAPPY FOR YOU

WHY MUST YOU DO THIS, DEMI

brb my heart can’t take it anymore

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If happy is her, I’m happy for you

Uhm…

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I was watching this DnD game on Youtube and I couldn’t help but get distracted by the side ad because THIS FACE.

That is all. I thought that was blogworthy. If you found this post random and useless, we definitely have different standards for judging whether something deserves a blogpost or not.

Uhm…

My virology class is on the road to turning me into a germophobe

Ignorance is bliss, they say. IT IS WHEN IT’S ABOUT VIRUSES.

Good lord, I’ve never been a hypochondriac which has been surprising given how paranoid I am. Like I tell everyone, if I’m the star in Inside Out, Fear would be the one governing my brain. I have my “hypochondriac moments”, especially that time I panicked if I had impacted wisdom teeth because I thought my teeth were moving like my best friend’s only for the dentist to tell me that my wisdom teeth aren’t even completely out. FAIL.

Or that time I thought my pimple was already forming a keloid. Which of course, wasn’t the case.

But almost three months into my virology class and I go MOVE AWAY PEOPLE every time someone sneezes or coughs. Case in point, I usually find babies cute. Even sick babies. But as I was walking at the mall a few days ago, this cute baby sneezed and I nearly jumped away. I definitely moved my head away even though I know that DROPLETS ARE PROJECTED VERY FAST AND MOVING MY HEAD AWAY IS FUTILE.

WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME?

I get scared now of getting sick when I’ve never been like this.

I guess when you know exactly how these viruses work, it’s hard not to think about it when you see someone sneezing or coughing or wearing a face mask. PSA: FACE MASKS DON’T WORK, YOU GUYS. The common ones. It just gives people a false sense of security. FACE MASKS LIE, YOU GUYS.

Haha! What is even my point with this post?

Soooooooooooo, I dunno if this germophobe status of mine will stay or will just end when this semester ends. It’d probably end because I live my life in phases. But for now, MOVE AWAY FROM ME, SICK PEOPLE. MOVE AWAY.

My virology class is on the road to turning me into a germophobe

The day that was October 23, 2015

Wahaha, I thought I could post every day but whatever, not pressuring myself. This blog has no sponsors or readers whatsoever so no one cares.

Anyway, last Friday was full of awesomeness. The whole week I was obsessed with One Direction’s Perfect as any other Directioner in the world. Then I spent the morning listening to this like what I’ve been doing ever since this video became available two weeks ago. By the way, I cried when I saw her performance of this on SNL.

And I still get teary when I listen to it because THOSE LYRICS.

Stone cold, baby
God knows I tried to feel
Happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can’t understand, I’ll take the pain
Give me the truth, me and my heart
We’ll make it through
If happy is her, I’m happy for you

It’s so feels-inducing MY HEART. So Someone Like You by Adele.

But then this dropped.

Never mind the video, it was distracting. But I like the song! I really like it and was moving along to it and turned happy even after being teary-eyed with Demi Lovato’s Stone Cold when I learned that THIS dropped.

MOVE OVER SORRY BY JUSTIN BIEBER OH MY GOD ADELE IS BACK HELLO AND SHE IS SO FAB AND GLORIOUS AND THAT SONG THE SONG ADELE IS BACK IT IS NOT A DRILL

So basically my feelings were all over the place. I went from crying to Demi Lovato’s Stone Cold to dancing to Justin Bieber’s newly released track to spazzing and bowing down Adele’s feet because ADELE IS BACK I KNOW I’M NOT COHERENT BUT ADELEEEEEEEEEEEE

Her eyeliner and eyelashes HOW I NEED HER STYLIST/MAKE-UP ARTIST

And that was it. THE DAY I SEESAWED TO ALL THESE FEELS

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Baby, I’m perfect for you~

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This was how my Desktop looked last night before I went home from work at 10:30 PM. The loop only started when I got to work at 12NN. Before going to work, I ended up with 23 repeats before I finally mustered the willpower to finally be a responsible employee and go to work. My boss also caught me watching the music video so if I get fired soon, we know why.

It’s because of One Direction’s Perfect music video. Made by Dawn Lanuza (some said by yours truly), here’s basically what happened yesterday when 1D dropped Perfect and the world collectively went gaga.

imageimageimageReasons why I love it so so much:

1. Louis!!! Yesterday felt like Louis Appreciation Day and I’M SO HAPPY. Bb gets to shine!
2. The very obvious Taylor Swift nods in the song and in the music video. (I don’t care about TSwift *hides from bricks* but I care about HAYLOR.)
3. LARRY FOREVER but I do love Louis x Liam.
4. Niall, you sensitive soul who loves to play golf.
5. Black and white!
6. Basically everything I CANNOT DEAL WITH THE FEELS AND THE AMAZING

If you haven’t seen it (WHY THE HELL NOT?), here it is!

gtg rewatching again

Baby, I’m perfect for you~

Of Ruby Sparks and Lo-Fang

*This was originally posted here but I’m putting it here because I think it fits this blog.

Last June 2014, I watched one of my five-star garnering films of that year, Ruby Sparks. I know, I know, a lot of people have been raving about it to me for the longest time and I’ve wanted to watch it for some time now. But I just got a copy and of course, I immediately watched it. And boy, were everyone right.

If you’re not familiar with it, Ruby Sparks is a movie released back in 2012 starring Paul Dano and Zoe Kazan. Kazan also wrote the screenplay and the directors behind Little Miss Sunshine were at the helm. It’s about Calvin, a bestselling author who has been in a sophomore slump, with so much pressure after his first book lauding all the awards and praises. He then dreams of a girl and starts writing about her and she comes to life as the titular Ruby Sparks.

This is in no way a review of the film but if you haven’t watched it, I suggest you do so. Great directing, wonderful screenplay and superb acting. Just generally aces in all aspects. But the point of this post is to share this amazing and super talented musician I chanced upon randomly, Lo-Fang. He’s a classically trained musician so he plays A LOT of instruments and his voice, OH HIS VOICE. He has this song called Confusing Happiness and I’m putting it in here, with the lyrics, so you can listen.

I had to break the code, Go mad.

I tried, To make a soul From scratch.

If I could dream you in meticulous detail, Would you ever come alive? Would you ever come alive? I’ll dedicate my days and 14 of my nights Will you ever come alive? Will you ever come alive?

I want this, A confusing happiness, Never knowing what comes next. I want this, All the agony and bliss, From confusing happiness.

The dawn, no birds around, Reborn, without a sound. Oh no, The fire drowned.

If I could dream you in meticulous detail, Would you ever come alive? Would you ever come alive? Since I began, it’s taken two years in this hell. Will you ever come alive? Will you ever come alive?

I want this, A confusing happiness, Never knowing what comes next. I want this, All the agony and bliss, From confusing happiness.

(If I could dream you up…)

If I could dream you in meticulous detail, Would you ever come alive? Would you ever come alive? I dedicate my body and my conscious mind. Will you ever come alive? Will you ever come alive?

I want this, A confusing happiness, Never knowing what comes next. I want this, All the agony and bliss, From confusing happiness.

It’s the perfect theme song for Ruby Sparks, isn’t it? The lyrics are perfect and the somber, mellow tone captures Calvin’s feelings all throughout the film. I had goosebumps when I first listened to the song and I can’t un-link this song to Ruby Sparks.

So, yeap, that’s it! I just made a movie and a song recommendation, which is one of the things this blog is for. I hope you guys check both out, if you haven’t. Really, they’re great. I stand by it.

Of Ruby Sparks and Lo-Fang

What’s wrong with being confident?

Demi Lovato just dropped her latest album CONFIDENT and I love it because of course, I love everything by Demi. CONFIDENT is her second single off the album and it’s such an earworm! I can’t stop singing the hook with all the snaps even though I can’t snap! I know, I am a step less evolved from normal ~humans~. So I just try snapping along even if I don’t actually produce a sound.

And not only is it so catchy, its message is just so empowering and SO DEMI. Like, eff you all, I’m badass. Gah, Demi you slaaaaaaaaayyyy.

But the awesomeness doesn’t stop there because the music video stars Latinos and Latinas and even the production team behind it is also composed of Latinas and Latinos. And good lord, the females in this video aren’t just strutting sensually and sexily but they’re badasses who kick asses. CONFIDENT, INDEED.

You go Demi, you empowering girl. LOVE YA.

What’s wrong with being confident?

Apparently, .xyz sounds shady.

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So I made my blog last night, right? Well, it was past midnight so it might be more accurate to say that I made it today. Specifically, I made it past 2AM. And you know what they say about decisions made past 2AM…

I really wanted my domain name to be DAYAN as I went by this nickname back in high school. It’s how you’d spell DIANNE if you spell it like how it sounds. But when I went to search for domain names, dayan.com was taken, which I pretty much expected. So I only had three options: .xyz or .space or .website. Three options that I could actually afford. .xyz sounded shady but the other two were boring.

I texted human-I-treat-as-a-soundboard Sab about this Shady Dilemma and of course, being it past 2AM, she didn’t reply. Fuck it, I said. I’m buying dayan.xyz. I’d own this shadiness *snap snap*, I thought.

Checking my phone at 6AM, Sab confirmed for me that .xyz sounded shady and ~hipster~. I’d take hipster, that’s a compliment for me. (I try so hard to be cool, it’s unhealthy.) But I was still worrying about the shadiness of it all. Eh, it’s a done deal and surprisingly, even though apparently it did sound shady, I liked .xyz. You don’t see domain names like mine constantly.

So while my blog URL sounds shady, I’m super happy about it!

Still, do you think dayan.xyz sounds shady? *eternal need to be placated and validated*

Apparently, .xyz sounds shady.

Oh, I made a new blog… AGAIN.

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I might have a problem in that I couldn’t seem to stop making a new blog every three years or so. The last blog I made is now three years old a few days ago. It’s my book blog, where I review mostly young adult books. The one before that was made in 2008 during lunch at my high school library. It was solely made for the purposes of fangirling about Japanese and Korean TV series and shows and actors, which turned into nothing as I stopped updating it when I moved on from that phase by 2013. In 2006, I had my very first OWN blog written in my native tongue I stopped updating by 2010. Prior to that, my group of friends had a blog we collectively updated. Fan blogs and Tumblrs are not included in this history because while I own those blogs, I don’t exactly blog about MY life in them. Or my interests. They’re pretty specific. And now they’re almost dead for two years.

What is with me and making a blog every now and then? Admittedly, I sound so pensive right now and I feel pretty pensive for someone who’s still awake at 2:42 AM and who has spent around $15 in setting up this blog. I’ve been thinking about making this blog for a few days now because my book blog doesn’t provide the outlet I so crave. I wanna talk about ANYTHING and I couldn’t do that in there. I could possibly do that in my other blogs but I felt like I needed a new start. SO HERE IT IS. Whew!

Wow, I sound so psyched about this. I am psyched about all this but at 2:44 AM, my mind tends to think about sad things and maybe I’m in a midlife crisis but I refuse to think that because I don’t wanna die at 42. AND THIS HAS TAKEN A DARK ROUTE ALREADY.

It’s just that, I finally want to BE the kind of blogger I admire. To write about things I wanna read. Even if no one’s gonna read it. I NEED AN OUTLET, YOU GUYS. I need somewhere where I can post TV show recaps and reviews too because I absolutely want to do that. I’ve been wanting to do that ever since I was in high school (well, I wanted to do that for Kor/Jap shows back then BUT STILL). I need somewhere where I can share songs I love and talk about my newfound love for Justin Bieber. Where I can share about that obscure song I recently discovered. Or that Polish film I absolutely adored.

Lastly, I feel like I’m finally transitioning into adulthood. I still don’t feel like an actual adult and in fact, there are only two instances when I feel like an adult. One is when I think and worry about and pay the bills and one is when I do my taxes. That’s it. But now that my work’s ending in a year and I’m planning on taking up grad school abroad, my mind has just so many tabs open about ~THE FUTURE~ that I feel this looming cloud of doom called adulthood coming. WHAT A DRAMA QUEEN. Haha! But seriously. So this is like, hey, adult Dianne in here.

And I promise to be more fun in my next posts or at least inject some of my effervescence and wittiness in my next posts but just give this one to me.

So, if you read this, welcome to my new blog! That I will try to keep updated because I paid for it. Ha!

P.S. That gif is so overly dramatic but I can’t help it! I just watched some episodes of Freaks and Geeks on a Sunday night as you do if you’re remotely like me.

Oh, I made a new blog… AGAIN.