If happy is her, I’m happy for you


I feel like I didn’t highlight this song fully in this post because I ended up just spazzing about Adele. But good lord, THIS SONG. I get teary -eyed every time I listen to it because:


I’ll just put the lyrics in here so you can sing along. It has a lot of Adele’s Someone Like You feels and just DEMIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Stone cold, stone cold
You see me standing, but I’m dying on the floor
Stone cold, stone cold
Maybe if I don’t cry, I won’t feel anymore

Stone cold, baby
God knows I tried to feel
Happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can’t understand, I’ll take the pain
Give me the truth, me and my heart
We’ll make it through
If happy is her, I’m happy for you


Stone cold, stone cold
You’re dancing with her, while I’m staring at my phone
Stone cold, stone cold
I was your amber, but now she’s your shade of gold

Stone cold, baby
God knows I tried to feel
Happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can’t understand, I’ll take the pain
Give me the truth, me and my heart
We’ll make it through
If happy is her, I’m happy for you

Don’t wanna be stone cold, stone
I wish I could mean this but here’s my goodbye
Oh, I’m happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can’t understand
If happy is her, If happy is her
I’m happy for you




brb my heart can’t take it anymore




I was watching this DnD game on Youtube and I couldn’t help but get distracted by the side ad because THIS FACE.

That is all. I thought that was blogworthy. If you found this post random and useless, we definitely have different standards for judging whether something deserves a blogpost or not.

My virology class is on the road to turning me into a germophobe

Ignorance is bliss, they say. IT IS WHEN IT’S ABOUT VIRUSES.

Good lord, I’ve never been a hypochondriac which has been surprising given how paranoid I am. Like I tell everyone, if I’m the star in Inside Out, Fear would be the one governing my brain. I have my “hypochondriac moments”, especially that time I panicked if I had impacted wisdom teeth because I thought my teeth were moving like my best friend’s only for the dentist to tell me that my wisdom teeth aren’t even completely out. FAIL.

Or that time I thought my pimple was already forming a keloid. Which of course, wasn’t the case.

But almost three months into my virology class and I go MOVE AWAY PEOPLE every time someone sneezes or coughs. Case in point, I usually find babies cute. Even sick babies. But as I was walking at the mall a few days ago, this cute baby sneezed and I nearly jumped away. I definitely moved my head away even though I know that DROPLETS ARE PROJECTED VERY FAST AND MOVING MY HEAD AWAY IS FUTILE.


I get scared now of getting sick when I’ve never been like this.

I guess when you know exactly how these viruses work, it’s hard not to think about it when you see someone sneezing or coughing or wearing a face mask. PSA: FACE MASKS DON’T WORK, YOU GUYS. The common ones. It just gives people a false sense of security. FACE MASKS LIE, YOU GUYS.

Haha! What is even my point with this post?

Soooooooooooo, I dunno if this germophobe status of mine will stay or will just end when this semester ends. It’d probably end because I live my life in phases. But for now, MOVE AWAY FROM ME, SICK PEOPLE. MOVE AWAY.

The day that was October 23, 2015

Wahaha, I thought I could post every day but whatever, not pressuring myself. This blog has no sponsors or readers whatsoever so no one cares.

Anyway, last Friday was full of awesomeness. The whole week I was obsessed with One Direction’s Perfect as any other Directioner in the world. Then I spent the morning listening to this like what I’ve been doing ever since this video became available two weeks ago. By the way, I cried when I saw her performance of this on SNL.

And I still get teary when I listen to it because THOSE LYRICS.

Stone cold, baby
God knows I tried to feel
Happy for you
Know that I am, even if I
Can’t understand, I’ll take the pain
Give me the truth, me and my heart
We’ll make it through
If happy is her, I’m happy for you

It’s so feels-inducing MY HEART. So Someone Like You by Adele.

But then this dropped.

Never mind the video, it was distracting. But I like the song! I really like it and was moving along to it and turned happy even after being teary-eyed with Demi Lovato’s Stone Cold when I learned that THIS dropped.


So basically my feelings were all over the place. I went from crying to Demi Lovato’s Stone Cold to dancing to Justin Bieber’s newly released track to spazzing and bowing down Adele’s feet because ADELE IS BACK I KNOW I’M NOT COHERENT BUT ADELEEEEEEEEEEEE

Her eyeliner and eyelashes HOW I NEED HER STYLIST/MAKE-UP ARTIST


Review: Why Not Me? by Mindy Kaling

I’m so honored to be a part of the global blog tour for Mindy Kaling’s latest novel, Why Not Me?, organized by Penguin Random House. Mindy Kaling just keeps on proving that she is awesome.

Why Not Me?
Title: Why Not Me?
Author: Mindy Kaling
Publisher: Crown Archetype
Date of Publication: September 29, 2015

From the author of the beloved New York Times bestselling book Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? and the creator and star of The Mindy Project comes a collection of essays that are as hilarious and insightful as they are deeply personal.

In Why Not Me?, Kaling shares her ongoing journey to find contentment and excitement in her adult life, whether it’s falling in love at work, seeking new friendships in lonely places, attempting to be the first person in history to lose weight without any behavior modification whatsoever, or most important, believing that you have a place in Hollywood when you’re constantly reminded that no one looks like you.

In “How to Look Spectacular: A Starlet’s Confessions,” Kaling gives her tongue-in-cheek secrets for surefire on-camera beauty, (“Your natural hair color may be appropriate for your skin tone, but this isn’t the land of appropriate–this is Hollywood, baby. Out here, a dark-skinned woman’s traditional hair color is honey blonde.”) “Player” tells the story of Kaling being seduced and dumped by a female friend in L.A. (“I had been replaced by a younger model. And now they had matching bangs.”) In “Unlikely Leading Lady,” she muses on America’s fixation with the weight of actresses, (“Most women we see onscreen are either so thin that they’re walking clavicles or so huge that their only scenes involve them breaking furniture.”) And in “Soup Snakes,” Kaling spills some secrets on her relationship with her ex-boyfriend and close friend, B.J. Novak (“I will freely admit: my relationship with B.J. Novak is weird as hell.”)

Mindy turns the anxieties, the glamour, and the celebrations of her second coming-of-age into a laugh-out-loud funny collection of essays that anyone who’s ever been at a turning point in their life or career can relate to. And those who’ve never been at a turning point can skip to the parts where she talks about meeting Bradley Cooper.

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My Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
Thank you to Penguin Random House International for the review copy! Receiving one did not affect my views of the novel.

I recently reviewed Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me?, Mindy Kaling’s first novel, and I feel like I will just be reiterating what I said there AKA 1) Can Mindy Kaling be my best friend now? 2) Mindy Kaling is too awesome, and 3) I wanna be like Mindy Kaling.

Nothing changed since reading Why Not Me? and I didn’t know it was even possible but I adore and idolize Mindy even more. In Why Not Me?, Mindy tells us that unlike before where she wanted people to like her (and like her we did!), she wants us to KNOW her, the real her, this time around. At first, I was wary about this because if the Mindy in her first book isn’t the real her but the one seeking validation, am I gonna like her this time around? I was actually scared that I might not like Why Not Me? because of all that but PSHAW, WHY DID YOU EVER WORRY, DIANNE?

I think Lyra‘s review is so on point about the greatness that is this book. She mentions how she can totally relate to Mindy. She even included passages that rang true to her and I couldn’t help but agree. YES YES YES. YES TO EVERYTHING MINDY SAYS. I’m turning 22 next month and while obviously, Mindy has experienced so much more than me, I can still totally relate to her. Mindy talks about everything I’m interested in at this point in my life where I’m working and looking forward and feeling scared about the future. Ex-best friends, my work, my career, confidence (especially that I have low self-esteem; hey guys, the talkativeness you see is a defense mechanism so I look confident when deep inside I am super doubting everything I do), looking good FOR YOURSELF (I hate people who ask me why I’m wearing a dress or dressed so nicely on a ~normal~ day and I’m like I DON’T NEED IT TO BE A SPECIAL DAY TO DRESS UP), and a whole lot more. It’s like Mindy asked me what I wanted to read in my dreams and then wrote about it so when I finally read it, it felt like a surprise still. YOU KNOW ME SO WELL, MINDY. LET’S BE FRIENDS.

My favorite parts were obviously everything (ha!), everything about BJ Novak (I think I fell in love with BJ just from what Mindy said about him. I want my own BJ even just a friend!), her mom (whom she dedicated this novel too), her ex-best friend Greta, Will the romanctic interest (OMG OMG OMG), and about working hard. I’ve been super lazy at work because I don’t know if I still love science as much as I did before. I don’t know if it’s my passion but even though I’m not sure, all I got from Mindy was to work hard. I seriously bow down to Mindy and her dedication and love for her craft. She doesn’t get much sleep but she’s fine with that because HELLO, SHE’S DOING WHAT SHE LOVES.

While Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? is more autobiographical for me as she tells us a lot about her childhood, high school, and college days, Why Not Me? has more essays about weddings, sororities, fashion, and all sorts of topics. And I love that. Because in her previous book, one of the reasons you’ll love Mindy is because you’ll see yourself in all her childhood embarrassments and everything. In here, Mindy stays true to her self-appointed mandate of letting us know her. We get to know the Mindy of now and her opinions on a variety of topics. Can I just high-five Mindy for everything? Gah, she gets me.

Not only does Mindy get me, she gets me and makes me laugh. Why Not Me? was so fun to read and duh, I didn’t expect less from Mindy. I also swooned, and my heart broke for all the friendship drama, and felt awe for Mindy. Obviously, by now, I will read ANYTHING and EVERYTHING by Mindy Kaling. FAN FOR LIFE HERE.

About Mindy Kaling

Mindy Kaling lives in rural New Hampshire and does not own a TV.

Baby, I’m perfect for you~


This was how my Desktop looked last night before I went home from work at 10:30 PM. The loop only started when I got to work at 12NN. Before going to work, I ended up with 23 repeats before I finally mustered the willpower to finally be a responsible employee and go to work. My boss also caught me watching the music video so if I get fired soon, we know why.

It’s because of One Direction’s Perfect music video. Made by Dawn Lanuza (some said by yours truly), here’s basically what happened yesterday when 1D dropped Perfect and the world collectively went gaga.

imageimageimageReasons why I love it so so much:

1. Louis!!! Yesterday felt like Louis Appreciation Day and I’M SO HAPPY. Bb gets to shine!
2. The very obvious Taylor Swift nods in the song and in the music video. (I don’t care about TSwift *hides from bricks* but I care about HAYLOR.)
3. LARRY FOREVER but I do love Louis x Liam.
4. Niall, you sensitive soul who loves to play golf.
5. Black and white!

If you haven’t seen it (WHY THE HELL NOT?), here it is!

gtg rewatching again

Of Ruby Sparks and Lo-Fang

*This was originally posted here but I’m putting it here because I think it fits this blog.

Last June 2014, I watched one of my five-star garnering films of that year, Ruby Sparks. I know, I know, a lot of people have been raving about it to me for the longest time and I’ve wanted to watch it for some time now. But I just got a copy and of course, I immediately watched it. And boy, were everyone right.

If you’re not familiar with it, Ruby Sparks is a movie released back in 2012 starring Paul Dano and Zoe Kazan. Kazan also wrote the screenplay and the directors behind Little Miss Sunshine were at the helm. It’s about Calvin, a bestselling author who has been in a sophomore slump, with so much pressure after his first book lauding all the awards and praises. He then dreams of a girl and starts writing about her and she comes to life as the titular Ruby Sparks.

This is in no way a review of the film but if you haven’t watched it, I suggest you do so. Great directing, wonderful screenplay and superb acting. Just generally aces in all aspects. But the point of this post is to share this amazing and super talented musician I chanced upon randomly, Lo-Fang. He’s a classically trained musician so he plays A LOT of instruments and his voice, OH HIS VOICE. He has this song called Confusing Happiness and I’m putting it in here, with the lyrics, so you can listen.

I had to break the code, Go mad.

I tried, To make a soul From scratch.

If I could dream you in meticulous detail, Would you ever come alive? Would you ever come alive? I’ll dedicate my days and 14 of my nights Will you ever come alive? Will you ever come alive?

I want this, A confusing happiness, Never knowing what comes next. I want this, All the agony and bliss, From confusing happiness.

The dawn, no birds around, Reborn, without a sound. Oh no, The fire drowned.

If I could dream you in meticulous detail, Would you ever come alive? Would you ever come alive? Since I began, it’s taken two years in this hell. Will you ever come alive? Will you ever come alive?

I want this, A confusing happiness, Never knowing what comes next. I want this, All the agony and bliss, From confusing happiness.

(If I could dream you up…)

If I could dream you in meticulous detail, Would you ever come alive? Would you ever come alive? I dedicate my body and my conscious mind. Will you ever come alive? Will you ever come alive?

I want this, A confusing happiness, Never knowing what comes next. I want this, All the agony and bliss, From confusing happiness.

It’s the perfect theme song for Ruby Sparks, isn’t it? The lyrics are perfect and the somber, mellow tone captures Calvin’s feelings all throughout the film. I had goosebumps when I first listened to the song and I can’t un-link this song to Ruby Sparks.

So, yeap, that’s it! I just made a movie and a song recommendation, which is one of the things this blog is for. I hope you guys check both out, if you haven’t. Really, they’re great. I stand by it.

Review: Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? (And Other Concerns) by Mindy Kaling

Can Mindy Kaling be my best friend now? I now strive to be like Mindy Kaling.

Title: Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? (And Other Concerns)
Author: Mindy Kaling
Publisher: Three Rivers Press
Date of Publication: September 18, 2012

Mindy Kaling has lived many lives: the obedient child of immigrant professionals, a timid chubster afraid of her own bike, a Ben Affleck–impersonating Off-Broadway performer and playwright, and, finally, a comedy writer and actress prone to starting fights with her friends and coworkers with the sentence “Can I just say one last thing about this, and then I swear I’ll shut up about it?”

Perhaps you want to know what Mindy thinks makes a great best friend (someone who will fill your prescription in the middle of the night), or what makes a great guy (one who is aware of all elderly people in any room at any time and acts accordingly), or what is the perfect amount of fame (so famous you can never get convicted of murder in a court of law), or how to maintain a trim figure (you will not find that information in these pages). If so, you’ve come to the right book, mostly!

In Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me?, Mindy invites readers on a tour of her life and her unscientific observations on romance, friendship, and Hollywood, with several conveniently placed stopping points for you to run errands and make phone calls. Mindy Kaling really is just a Girl Next Door—not so much literally anywhere in the continental United States, but definitely if you live in India or Sri Lanka.

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My Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

I’m part of the global blog tour for Why Not Me?, Mindy Kaling’s latest novel. I know I need not read this book for that but it just felt appropriate to read her first book first. Besides, I got super sad one day so I decided to splurge on a book and I chose this. AND I’M GLAD I DID!

Admittedly, I haven’t watched The Mindy Project although I’ve been planning to for the longest time. I’ve only watched the first season of The Office and I wasn’t yet obsessed with it at that point. But after finishing this book, all I wanted was to get Mindy Kaling as my best friend. Or for me to be a part of her posse. I want to bask in the glory that is her humor and insights. I wanna gobble up all things Mindy Kaling and to finally get on watching The Mindy Project.

Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? is composed of essays, some autobiographical, some observational. All funny. I found myself chuckling and even full-on busting my gut ALL THE TIME while I read this book. It certainly fulfilled its purpose of making me happy. Not only did I laugh my ass off, I now have a new idol in Mindy Kaling. I wanna be like her, all hilarious, kind, insightful, hardworking, and confident.

I especially loved her childhood stories because I can totally imagine all the embarrassing details vividly. I’m at a point in my life where I can laugh about my childhood and high school, and even college, embarrassments. I love how Mindy just owns her chubbiness. (For the record, I don’t even think she’s chubby now!) That essay resonated with me so well because I’m perpetually chubby-fluctuating-to-fat-all-the-time. I want to lose weight and maybe not find it difficult to buy clothes but I also don’t care that much. I love my body.

Her rights and responsibilities of a best friend essay was so on point and sweet and I was so touched by it. I couldn’t help but nod and think of my own best friend. I also reveled in her anecdotes about Steve Carell and Amy Poehler and her stories of being a useless intern because she was too busy fangirling over Conan O’Brien. I can COMPLETELY relate to Mindy and especially to teen Mindy. With her lack of athleticism and hate for it, her weird love for her parents, and all that. Gah, Mindy.

Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? is the kind of book I can foresee myself re-reading and re-reading. It gives the reader a look into the life of Mindy Kaling, from her childhood to her teen years to her jobless phase in New York and to finally the Mindy Kaling that we know now, while making the reader laugh along the way. I’m so excited to read Why Not Me? after this. And I will forever be reading whatever Mindy writes.

About Mindy Kaling

Mindy Kaling lives in rural New Hampshire and does not own a TV.

What’s wrong with being confident?

Demi Lovato just dropped her latest album CONFIDENT and I love it because of course, I love everything by Demi. CONFIDENT is her second single off the album and it’s such an earworm! I can’t stop singing the hook with all the snaps even though I can’t snap! I know, I am a step less evolved from normal ~humans~. So I just try snapping along even if I don’t actually produce a sound.

And not only is it so catchy, its message is just so empowering and SO DEMI. Like, eff you all, I’m badass. Gah, Demi you slaaaaaaaaayyyy.

But the awesomeness doesn’t stop there because the music video stars Latinos and Latinas and even the production team behind it is also composed of Latinas and Latinos. And good lord, the females in this video aren’t just strutting sensually and sexily but they’re badasses who kick asses. CONFIDENT, INDEED.

You go Demi, you empowering girl. LOVE YA.

Apparently, .xyz sounds shady.


So I made my blog last night, right? Well, it was past midnight so it might be more accurate to say that I made it today. Specifically, I made it past 2AM. And you know what they say about decisions made past 2AM…

I really wanted my domain name to be DAYAN as I went by this nickname back in high school. It’s how you’d spell DIANNE if you spell it like how it sounds. But when I went to search for domain names, dayan.com was taken, which I pretty much expected. So I only had three options: .xyz or .space or .website. Three options that I could actually afford. .xyz sounded shady but the other two were boring.

I texted human-I-treat-as-a-soundboard Sab about this Shady Dilemma and of course, being it past 2AM, she didn’t reply. Fuck it, I said. I’m buying dayan.xyz. I’d own this shadiness *snap snap*, I thought.

Checking my phone at 6AM, Sab confirmed for me that .xyz sounded shady and ~hipster~. I’d take hipster, that’s a compliment for me. (I try so hard to be cool, it’s unhealthy.) But I was still worrying about the shadiness of it all. Eh, it’s a done deal and surprisingly, even though apparently it did sound shady, I liked .xyz. You don’t see domain names like mine constantly.

So while my blog URL sounds shady, I’m super happy about it!

Still, do you think dayan.xyz sounds shady? *eternal need to be placated and validated*