Sorry for the delay on posting these! I thought I already posted the words for F but apparently not…
fable, n.: Sometimes you make me feel like one of those bears, wondering who’s been sleeping in my bed, who’s been eating all the porridge.
fabric, n.: At first you feel the thread between you, and then, as the love grows, you feel it weaving into everything else.
fabulate, v.: You can turn a dinner party into a cage match, or a wrong turn into a misadventure — a harmless storytelling lie.
facile, adj.: Never dismiss anyone else’s pain. I know I’ve had it easy, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be hard.
facsimile, n.: When you go away, I ask you to leave a metaphor behind to keep me company. “I need you as colors need light,” you say.
fact, n.: It should be the basis of certainty, but more often than not nowadays, it’s the basis of argument.
factor, v.: The five minutes of our morning goodbye can spell out my mood for hours throughout the day.
factotum, n.: In love, there is no such thing as a specialist. You are on call all the time, for everything.
facture, n.: Because it’s not what you tell me, it’s how you tell it. The quality of the tone, not the words. I gauge your brushstrokes.
fade, v.: Let the world go quiet around us so we don’t have to make noise to be heard.
failsafe, n.: I guard a small part of myself, invulnerable, because I know that’s where I will have to retreat if everything goes wrong.
failure, n.: I don’t fear the damage as much as I fear the sadness the damage will cause.
faint, adj.: Seeing your distraction, I wonder whose silhouette is walking through the room.
fair, adj.: It’s a tricky thing, to hold on to your ideals and to hold other people to them.
faith, n.: The choice that doesn’t feel like a choice; love is always greater than the sum of its evidence.
faithful, adj.: Promise to hold on to me in a way you will not hold on to anyone else.
fake, adj.: Even the most innocent are still afraid of being found out, because we are never fully comfortable with our own roles.
fall, v.: That first night, you held on to me like we were both plunging through the air.
fallacy, n.: You seem to believe things can fix themselves, but a relationship is no different from a broken teacup.
fallibilist, n.: A life lived by the laws of scrutiny can only be lived in tiny fractions.
fallow, adj.: When it gets to be so late that neither of us can pin down a thought, so we let the conversation rest for a while.
falsehood, n.: The thing about lies is that they are hard to sustain; life gravitates naturally toward truth.
familial, adj.: We have created our own blood between us. We have created our shared history, our shared traits.
familiar, adj.: Even if I never fully know you, I will know you more than anyone else.
fancy, v./adj.: If you’re going to dress your words in ribbons and bows, I want there to be meaning underneath the decoration.
fanfare, n.: The playful sweetness of your “Honey! I’m home!”
fantasize, v.: You should never stare at your fantasy while you are having it.
far, adj.: When you are outside of help’s distance, I feel it keenly.
farce, n.: Those thin moments when love seems reduced to pantomime.
farewell, n.: The word tells us: If we’re going to part, let us part as friends.
farouche, adj.: Shyness sounds so much better as this, as if my timidity is somehow exotic, hidden behind the ripeness of the syllables.
farrago, n.: Love is a confused mixture of hope, despair, and reality.
fascination, n.: Predictable as I say you are, I never know how you’ll respond, so I keep throwing out words, to see how they’re returned.
fashionable, adj.: You forbid me from growing a beard, because you allege I will do it for the wrong reasons.
fat, adj.: More than a measure of weight, this is a measure of the perceived inadequacy in trying to control it.
fate, n.: You can only believe in this if you are willing to take everything else for granted, which I am not.
fathom, v.: You send your empathy into the depths, to find the elusive swim of a sure explanation.
fatigue, n.: When the unbearable seems to outweigh the bearable, and you are too tired to correct the scales.
faucet, n.: Sometimes at night only one of us hears the drip.
fault, n.: The desire for blame increases over time in a relationship, as does its needlessness.
faux, adj.: Every time you use this word, I think of you as a fake.
faze, v.: Why do we think that lies are smooth to say? For me it’s the truth that glides out, and the lies that fall rough on my tongue.
fealty, n.: To love, you must vacate the concepts of owe and own.
fear, n.: The bone-deep feeling that all your worst expectations have come true.
feasible, adj.: I have never heard anyone say, “I love you within reason” – it’s just impossible to do.
feast, n.: The meal you cooked me wasn’t as important as being there to see how you danced and fussed with the ingredients.
feat, n.: I never imagined anyone putting up with me for this long. I want to congratulate you.
febrifuge, n.: When the pressure of life frenzies me into a heat of confusion, I need you to be the cold compress of focus and calm.
feckless, adj.: It’s safe to assume that we generally know each other’s thoughts by now, but it’s also safe to assume we’ll get some wrong.
federation, n.: I saw my parents as this form of government – a central ruling body, and then lesser bodies in charge of their own affairs.
feebleminded, adj.: You laugh and say that your behavior (we found the keys in the toilet; no one flushed) is a preview of when we’re 80.
feed, v./n.: If we unplug for even a weekend, the phantom limb pulls at us, back toward the trough.
feel, v.: What if you get to the heart of me, and find that it’s dead, or was never born?
feign, v.: It’s probably best if I don’t know who you want me to be, because then I don’t have to pretend to be that person.
felicific, adj.: Fittingly, this word makes me happy just by existing.
fence, v.: In our effort to keep things in, we inevitably keep things out.
fend, v.: You’re the one who’d be worse off abandoned in a jungle, because there’d be no one around to laugh at your jokes.
feral, adj.: This part of love particularly scares us, when our intellect is reduced to a pure, primal, uneducated want.
feretory, n.: I still keep your number from that night folded in my wallet, a currency I will never spend.
fermata, n.: Spend a day doing nothing with me; hit the pause button, let quiet be the music for once.
ferment, v.: Bear with me — sometimes what I learn needs some time to shift from experience to knowledge.
ferocious, adj.: I can only summon the lion when I need to defend myself; it will not show up for aggression.
ferry, v.: If you cannot be the boat that carries me from this to that, then at least be the tide helping me along.
fervor, n.: Sweep me away with strength as well as speed, the depth of your interest as well as the thrill of the chase.
fester, v.: It’s our stubborn refusal to treat the wound that makes it worse.
festive, adj.: I like it best when we celebrate holidays of our own invention, waking up on Sunday, say, and declaring it devoted to red.
fetching, adj.: You dress yourself up to be a compliment magnet, and I can see your pride when the plan works.
fetish, n.: I couldn’t even say what your feet look like.
feud, n.: Our armies only run a few people deep, friends on either side. Better to join forces and take on greater enemies than each other.
fever, n: Heat with an edge of delirium, not so much caught as incited.
fiasco, n.: I told you to imagine me calling your mother by the word “Mom” and you were filled with laughing horror.
fib, n.: I can deal with the lesser lies, the ones told so I don’t feel worse.
fibril, n.: It’s good to remember that the heart is not a unanimous object.
fickle, adj.: The constant questioning of whether what you have is enough, and what you want is the right thing to have.
fiction, n.: You accuse me of storytelling, and I remind you that all fiction is at least 90% emotional truth, layered over by invention.
fiddle, v.: It is a wise lover who knows if you control the music, you also control the steps. Resist the temptation to attach strings.
fidelity, n.: The dictionary connects faithfulness with a clarity of sound, and it is right to do so. Our love should be high-fi.
fidget, v.: Thoughts wander out of us, uncontrollable.
fieldcraft, n.: Many observations of love cannot me made from a remove; knowledge of love is experiential.
fiendish, adj.: I get home from a long day of work to find you’ve finished the leftovers I spent the past three hours anticipating.
fierce, adj.: There are times I would claw through walls for you, and other times I would claw through walls to get away.
fight, v.: Escalates from an argument when you make it about more than the now, pressing on the fault line where who you are meets who I am.
figment, n.: The currency of dreams.
figura, n.: The dictionary says you can represent a fact or an ideal; I would rather you represent a good interpretation.
figurative, adj.: This is how language dances about architecture, and we can approach an understanding of the things we grasp to know.
filament, n.: Illumination does not come from enormity, but rather a fine focus that then expands into light.
file, v.: Yes, I intend to keep track of both our misdeeds, but more often than not, the folders will get misplaced.
filial, adj.: You have the same color eyes as your mother, but they’re different eyes. You share some of her anger, but it’s not the same.
filibuster, v.: There is power in vowing that I will not stop until you have finally heard.
fill, v.: It is mistake to think you can ever pour yourself enough into another person to make them more yours.
fillip, n.: I am crying on the phone and you come over, put your hand on my back, and stay there for as long as it takes.
filmgoing, n.: For bad movies, we talk as soon as the credits roll, but for good ones, you ask for a five-minute grace period.
filter, v.: It shifts to match the mood; during good times, you only remember other good times. When it’s bad, the trail only leads there.
filthy, adj.: I ask you to talk dirty to me, and you laugh and murmur, “Two pigs in mud.”
finagle, v.: As much as I’m unsettled by your charm with strangers, I do love it when it gets us free coffee and alcohol.
final, adj.: I think it’s the last time, I say “this is the last time,” and then, on the other side of it, the next time’s already here.
finance, n.: You roll me over, kiss me, say, “So much for marrying rich.” I smile and say, “Yeah, we both kinda botched that one.”
find, v.: The nature of love is discovery, and discovery of that will lead you as far into yourself as it will into the ones you love.
fine, adj.: When you tell me this is how you are, I know we’re in the realm of the adequate, where you can only stay for so long.
finesse, v.: You are the smooth operator and I am the one who’s been warned against smooth operators, but fall for them anyway.
fingerprint, n.: Our most identifying features are ones we can’t see until they leave a mark.
finicky, adj.: Is your pasta really rendered inedible if it’s been touched by peas?
finite, adj.: I can only give you so many chances. You have been warned.
firebreak, n.: Heat of the argument, you think you’ve reached my core indifference, but you’ve hit the cleared ground protecting the truth.
fireworks, n.: We ooh and ahh like children, enjoying life that simply and that gloriously.
firmament, n.: We want the tangibility of knowing, but are left with the ungrounded ephemerality of faith.
first, adj.: I’d meant “I love you” before, but never with this entirety, never with all of my days contained within it.
firsthand, adj.: I don’t want to rely on airwaves and pixels, words and wires. I want you here, here, here.
fission, n.: The closer you get, the more intense the explosion will be when you’re torn apart.
fissure, n.: No relationship can grow without also cracking; the key is to use the cracks as handholds, to pull yourself up.
fisticuffs, n.: You come home with a bloody nose and say you were defending your honor. I ask you why, and you say you can’t remember.
fit, n./v.: We must exercise the us-shaped space, so it can hold everything that we lodge into it.
fitful, adj.: The first weeks of sleeping beside one another, navigating the space of two bodies in a bed, acquainting.
fixable, adj.: There never was an instruction manual, so let’s rely on intuition here.
fixation, n.: Largely aural; the way I hear silences as well as I hear words, and often misinterpret both.
fixture, n.: How many requests does it take to get you to screw in a lightbulb?
fizzy, adj.: “I’d rather be bourbon,” you say, “because champagne never lasts.”
fizzle, v.: Some nights peak too early, leave you walking among the embers with too much time to think and too little light to go by.
focal, adj.: The truth is not in the eyes so much as it’s in where the eyes land.
fodder, n.: I am not your material. You can try to make me whatever you want, but that’s not me.
foe, n.: Sometimes the person you love is your greatest rival for that love.
fog, v.: We should be able to see the past clearer than we see the future, but that’s not how it is with us, is it?
fogey, n.: I’ll admit, I love it when we natter and smirk with each other, as if auditioning to be an old couple together someday.
foible, n.: A foible almost sounds collectible. We don’t consciously put them on display, but eventually you’ll meet them all.
foil, n./v.: I knew you could be my counterpart the night you held the tin-wrapped leftovers out to me and said, “Oh, no, foiled again!”
foist, v.: Love is not something I’ve done to you.
fold, v.: Our bodies curving, our lives bending into each other, the hearts make their enclosure because they know we’ll feel safer there.
folderol, n.: The word you mutter when you see the rows of valentine cards, Hallmark insincerity. Love, you say, can’t be pre-printed.
follicular, adj.: I told you it was neat to see our hair braided in the drain like that, and you said, “You have a weird sense of romance.”
follow, v.: Even down the wrong turns, knowing they will still wind us to the right place.
folly, n.: Spectacular foolishness that comes with spectacular failure, imagination betrayed.
fondness, n.: When a person becomes one of the things you cherish about life.
fontanel, n.: In the infancy of a relationship, the bones have yet to fully form, so you must be tender and let them grow to protect.
foodie, n.: When mere sustenance will not sustain you, and raw materials are bestowed with the aspirations of art.
foolhardy, adj.: I saw the warning in some people’s eyes. They saw their history repeating in me, and I couldn’t guarantee otherwise.
foolish, adj.: I sing along when Belinda Carlile belts, “If I’m a fool for love, I don’t care, I don’t care!”
foolproof, adj.: To protect from foolishness, include it within the plan; know we will play each other’s dupes, but laugh about it later.
footfall, n.: The pace of you in some other room, then the better sound of you getting closer.
footloose, adj.: You’re certainly free of fanciness, but who cares as you teach the dance floor how to dance, heels helium, hands to heaven.
footprint, n.: We arrange ourselves around one another and then there, in the sand, it is momentarily visible.
for, prep.: This one’s dedicated to the one I love. The words don’t come for me, but for me to give to you.
forage, v.: Love shouldn’t turn you into a scavenger. If you feel you’re doing more searching than savoring, it’s time to give up the hunt.
foray, n.: I love it when we are a Technicolor parade of two, dancing within our own exuberance, striding through the streets.
forbid, v.: When your temper tells you to do this, remember you’re neither my monarch nor parent, and even if you were, it still would fail.
force, n.: Love is not an object, but a force. It has its own energy, its own power, its own trajectory.
forcefield, n.: As a child, I’d often walk around in one of these, and hope that telling someone it was there was enough to keep it intact.
ford, n.: Instead of staring across the resentful river, you and I need to walk the banks, find the best spot for crossing.
foreboding, n.: I would wake up and know you weren’t there. I’d see you beside me, but was convinced that was the illusion.
forecast, n.: You’re not unlike the radio weatherman. It’s only when the drops start to fall that you can guarantee it will rain.
foreground, n.: I can focus on the things behind you, but you are still a blurry, large presence that I inevitably encounter again.
foreseeable, adj.: The river bends; the only certainty is that there will still be a river for us if we keep going.
foreshadow, v.: I look for this shadow everywhere – on your phone when you check it; in the pages when I turn them; by our feet.
forfeit, v.: I no longer have to seek someone else; I must hope I will never find someone else and have to turn away.
forget, v.: Love is a partial amnesiac, enabling us to justify our disagreeing versions and then erase them, too.
forgive, v.: The just barely possible act of letting go of blame.
forlorn, adj.: I am dreaming of your intonations even in the cusp of silence.
formative, adj.: Your room was too close to your parents’.
formidable, adj.: I will pull off the ledge and wrestle you to the ground and show you strength you have no idea I possess.
formulaic, adj.: The people who think there is a pinpointable science to love are not the ones to believe.
fornicator, n.: This is not a dirty word.
fortuitous, adj.: That we should both be looking at the same time, and that we should end up looking in the same place.
fortunate, adj.: I feel I would have half a life without you.
fortune, n.: Custom says to add “in bed,” but you prefer to add “with you” instead.
forward, adj.: We have ups and downs, but it’s always forward.
fossil, n.: When we excavate our past relationships, a few retain their shape, no longer bodies, remembered from the bones.
foul, adj.: The bitter smell of deceit tends to seep into the furniture, and can take years to air out, if that.
found, adj.: The first step to belonging.
foundling, n.: There’s a part of me that thinks of you as orphaned from your old, more difficult life and adopted into mine.
frabjous, adj.: Stopping for ice-cream on a summer night, then walking and kisses that still taste as sweet.
fracas, n,: Be careful. The life of the party can also be the death of the relationship.
fractal, n.: We lodge a tiny piece of ourselves in every place we love.
fracture, n.: Sometimes we don’t even know it. We sense something is off, but have no idea that it’s begun to break.
fragile, adj.: We’re vulnerable to hurt, but we’re also stronger than that hurt. Each time we feel so fragile, we also learn we are not.
fragment, v.: Memory wants us to subsist on the patchwork of pain and pleasure left when the space holding the letters together dissolves.
frame, n.: No matter how much we try to keep the pose, times eludes any portrait. We can display the snapshots, but we can’t live like them.
frantic, adj.: When the unknown appears exponentially larger than the known, inducing a panic that feeds on itself.
fraternize, v.: You can’t let it cross over from flirting to conspiring, not in front of me.
fraud, n.: I said I could dance, then feared the dance floor. I confessed by the time it came, but you still dragged me on, said I did fine.
fraught, adj.: You have to understand, it’s a sign of how much I love you that so much is tied to alarm bells and warning signs
fray, n./v.: Joining it makes me feel like I am doing it inside.
frazzle, v.: When the jagged accumulation of questions I have for you keeps stabbing into the composure I try to maintain.
freak, n.: Whoever made the mold was crafty in making it so tight, so you can always feel the pressure of the places where you don’t fit.
freckle, n.: It’s like each represents an aspect of your personality; I think I know them well, but they are never fully mapped or counted.
freedom, n.: Control over your own time.
freelance, n.: At times I feel you’re employed by our love, but working in another place. There are few benefits in this arrangement.
freefall, n.: The fear from the precipice, complicated by the knowledge of how momentarily exhilarating it would be.
freestanding, adj.: If you don’t build too close to one another, the fire won’t spread.
freestyle, adj.: Your words sound spontaneous, but there’s a plan beneath them, a deliberate flow.
freeze, v.: Heat will make you run, but cold will trap you in place; when you emanate no warmth, something in me perishes.
freight, v.: Baggage is easy, by definition a carriable size. I feel more like a wan locomotive, adding car after car until I can’t move.
frenzy, n.: Kisses that fuse like a match has been thrown into a warehouse of fireworks.
frequency, n.: The foolish but heartfelt belief that we live in a world on infinite wavelengths, and you find the only person sharing yours.
freshman, n.: In that picture of you, I see little wisdom put plenty of promise, a joy in the finding before you know what you’ve found.
fret, v.: I worry about us and me and you. But that worry comes from love, nothing but love.
fricative, n.: The notion that some words are bound for friction from the letters placed within them, but we can just talk them through.
friction, n.: Human nature is not by nature smooth.
friend, n.: Someone you can trust with anything.
friendship, n,: The core element of any lasting relationship.
frighten, v.: To make someone believe that safety is a lie and harm is inevitable.
frippery, n.: Sometimes, without knowing it, you call too much attention to the fact that you’re trying to call attention to yourself.
frisson, n.: The whole room seems to teeter, and we know it’s teetering toward something we shouldn’t do, or something we really should.
frivolous, adj.: It’s not that you glide through life, but sometimes you fly the wrong altitude, too high to see what you need to see below.
froideur, n.: The reason we can’t seem to relate to the people in French movies is because they have so much of this.
frolic, v.: Dogs know this better than we do – the joy of letting it all leap.
from, prep.: A recognition that nothing exists without a past.
front, n.: I try to throw up a wall to prevent people from seeing what goes on inside, but with you, there are always windows.
frontier, n.: The unknown territory isn’t always that which lies in the future.
frontispiece, n.: Every story should start with a picture to set the tone. Ours would be the first subway goodbye, that kiss.
frost, n.: I can feel it settle in my veins the moment I see I’ve asked one question too many, have pressed the issue one assumption too far
frothy, adj.: The heady times of bubbly contentment, when all we can do it drink each other up. Are we smiling, or is it only gas?
frown, n.: Not so much the opposite of a smile as the evening out of the line, inscrutable neutral.
frowsy, adj.: Five o’clock shadow on my face, two a.m. shadow on my mind.
frozen, adj.: I will allow enough cold to wake me up, but not enough to paralyze me.
frugal, adj.: It is always a mistake to withhold love because you are afraid it will run out.
fruitful, adj.: A perfectly ripened Saturday when we walk along a river and talk with the excitement of two people who’ve just met.
frump, n.: To dress like a couch.
frustration, n.: When other people seem so much more free than you will ever be.
fubar, adj.: When I become the kind of person who breaks into his lover’s phone, just to make sure that no imaginary threats have called.
fuck, v.: Whoever tried to made a dirty word out of pleasure did not reckon on how pleasurable this word would be to say.
fudge, v.: To lead your lover to believe the cake disappeared from the kitchen in the middle of the night from some evaporative property.
fuel, n./v.: It is a complicated chemical, emotional, and at times nearly geological process, but I draw such power from you.
fugacity, n.: It is not wrong to allow things to disappear, as long as you are careful to balance them with things that remain.
fugitive, n.: You were running from your family long before you were running to me.
fugue, n.: I lose myself. No one else replaces me when I go missing. I am simply gone, and then I am back. You wait.
fulcrum, n.: We cannot let other people’s opinion become the point on which your love is balanced; we must fashion it from our own desires.
fulfill, v.: Contained in love is the promise of love, and by loving you, I am continually keeping that promise.
fulgent, adj.: You shine like a catastrophe, and I can’t look away.
full, adj.: It is essential to leave some space empty; you could – and should – never fill in all the blanks.
fulsome, adj.: I can be overwhelmed by how attracted I am to you, in part because I can’t let myself believe you look at me the same way.
fumble, v.: I should have just said that I liked it.
fume, v.: Discontent may be odorless but anger will make itself known.
fun, n.: When the only consequence is enjoyment.
functional, adj.: I don’t mean this as a dys-; let’s call attention to the things that work, since they rarely call attention to themselves.
fundamental, adj.: Everything I offer to define this is a variation of the word “respect.”
funereal, adj.: Feelings of loss bring us together as the reality of loss makes its presence solid in the middle of our lives.
funk, n.: When you’re in one, it’s best to listen to some. The canker and the cure sometimes share the same name.
funny, adj.: I heh while you HA! – but we repel the same absurdities with our laughter, rather than letting them sink in.
furious, adj.: When you become nearly mythological with rage.
furnace, n.: Love is the arrangement of coals; sex is the paper we throw upon it from time to time.
furniture, n.: The cast of characters within our apartment, each piece gaining more and more story over time.
further, adv.: All we can see is the horizon, but we aim for beyond that.
fuse, n./v.: My thoughts merge in such a kinetic, jagged frenzy that sometimes it’s too much, and I break to save myself.
fussbudget, n.: After our first mutual laundry run, you informed me I was folding the towels the wrong way.
futile, adj.: Part of love is knowing I will never be able to change you to the extent that I might want to, and accepting that as okay.
future, n.: The present is what I say and write; the future is what you will hear and read.
fuzzy, adj.: Memory loses its edges, but that’s what makes our lives comfortable enough to live.